I have felt many fears: of death, of being wounded, of cancer from radiation, and many others. But Colossians 3:3 comes to mind: "For you are dead and your life is hidden with Christ in God." If God doesn't hide or protect me, no one will. I've felt joy from going through this with God, and freedom in acknowledging all my emotions to Him, knowing He watches over me, even when I don't feel it.

Our staff team has done well, all things considered. Only 20 minutes after the wife of a JESUS-film worker delivered her baby, the water system was bombed, leaving her city without water. For a while she didn't have basics to care for the baby. The wife of another worker hurts when her children ask, "Will a bomb fall on our house?" She also fears her husband getting drafted. I'm concerned about driving my mom, who has cancer, to the hospital. Often there's not enough gas, and doctors only take emergency cases.

It has hurt most to see Belgrade, my hometown, slowly being ruined. We have all faced different emotions daily, depending on the intensity of the bombing. We know our need to trust the Lord and not lean on our own understanding––if I tried understanding all this myself, I'd probably lose all hope.

We're more committed now to praying for this nation. I thought I loved Yugoslavia, but nothing compared to now––this isn't the end for us. I'm readier to talk with people about my hope in Christ. I still don't see God opening hearts to the gospel––it's hard to process it under constant pressure. To the Serbs, a personal relationship with God is a foreign concept.

Even still, we believe God will bring people to Himself. Pray for the more than 30,000 Serbs who have fled the country and the more than 100,000 who have heard the gospel through the JESUS film or personal evangelism. Please pray that the war truly stops as soon as possible, and for the leaders who decide the fate of millions. Pray for all the churches in Yugoslavia. And pray for the Campus Crusade ministry here––we currently have no public ministry; it has simply been too dangerous.

I struggle with God's plan for us after the war. I know I'm not to worry about tomorrow, but sometimes it's hard. Spiritually, I can't imagine what to expect. Will people resist the gospel due to all their suffering? Will they continue their stubborn, religious thinking, or turn to a living God who loves them and cares for them? One thing I know: Most Serbs have never heard the gospel. Whatever happens, I long to meet people interested in talking about God and knowing more about Him.

God loves Albanians and Serbs equally––He died for them both. He knows the hostility and suffering in Kosovo over the past 50 years, during which many Serbs have fled their homes. The core of the Kosovo problem dates back 600 years. We need to pray for forgiveness and reconciliation, leading to the salvation of many souls.